Birthday surprises.

I got 2 birthday surprises in a row.

Thanks to my lovely sister, she is the planner. thanks for giving me such memorable surprises.

Love u to death.

I got so much to blog especially pics. Will update soon. :)

Busy days.

Im giving myself a break. So here I am, the spot where i can throw everything on. :)

I am so busy these days, trying to work hard for the sake of studying and trying to do as much exercises as i can. After chem tuition today, I heard tht spm grades have changed. Instead of A1, A2 .. the list goes on, they have changed it to A+, A , A- ... . I think this is something good for me, cz it looks nicer in certs or anything. lol.

I am trying to work harder nowadays, piles of works to do. Never ending studies are killing me and i am not getting enough of slumber. I fell asleep in my toilet while brushing teeth this morning, imagine. xDD
I realised that, sometimes being busy is a good way of keeping urself away from thinking too much. I did it! haha. All i could think of is spm right now. Im gona score , score score and score !!

Finally,to someone i care and concern the most.

U are my best friend, always is. I might not know u for long but im glad to hv a friend lk u. Thnks for being by my side when i was going through the hardest time of my life. U helped me and lended me ur shoulder whenever i feel lk crying. I have to say, u are the greatest person i've ver met.
Do not think tht im as cheerful, happy and dumb as u thought. I am not. I know what is going on around me. But, Im sorry to say tht i am nt ready for anything or talk bout any stuff right now, cz u knw i just walked out from the darkness of my life. Please und i hv no intention to hurt u, u will always be my best friend ill always share my things with. You are always the best ! :)

Stories underneath.

After counting, i got not much time left till spm. Results for trials, please don't ask ppl, cz i dun wana rmb,so stop asking ok? Im gonna work hard.!
Meanwhile, what to study have been bugging me. I still can't decide what to take after graduating. I was thinking business but everyone wa lk underestimating me. They feel that i wont be able to stay long in this field. Cz upon my looks, they will take advantages on me more thn i do to them. -.- Thank you for informing anyway. I don't feel lk takng science subjects as im a lil fed up with them right now. I might have the brain to take them, but i've got no interest. Urgh i need some time for these.


I was thinking to further studies oversea suddenly. I would hv say no once dad ask. But i didnt reject or oppose for nw, cz i changed my mind and wanted to leave this place right away. If u were to ask me at the beginning of the year, i will gv u an aswer full of confidence tht i dont wana leave my hometown. For nw, I will surely say yes! I don'y knw, i just wanted to leave this place right nw and give myself a break maybe?
So i am searching for oversea courses, but there arent much to choose, common one-aussie. Awww look further. First thing first, WORK HARD AND GET GOOD RESULTS. tht is the most important thing tht motivates me nowadays. lol
I want to fly away badly. cz nothing much for me to stay over here despite those saddening stuff.
i may miss my friends but i wish to knw more.

i wana fly away badly. =/

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Anyway, py left today. Everything is sort of back to track. i miss hanging with ccbs. Time to be back in those days, those days of being alone. sobs. i wana talk to them for 24/7 through internet, phones but im gona say bye to lappie. Got to stop surfing net and be bookworm. IMY guys. Never ending smile gona stop disappear for sometime.

AND I WAS PLAYING THIS SONG, WHAT U SAY BY LOON for lk dont knw how many times. Makes me feel more down. -.- its nice though, gona put it in my blog soon.

This song gona be my lullaby for sometime.

P/S. ccbs, try to stop smoking. im serious. u knw who am i indicating.

Sweethearts in kl .

Kl for family dinner. Baby girl's 1 year old birthday. Cam whore alot :DDD.
Guess pictures tell it all. So yea. :)

cupcakes. They are nice and cute. xDD

THE MAN AND THE CHILD. -.-

I love u , would u be by my side and take me fly lk u?

Grandma IMY.

SWEETHEARTS IN KL.

its the latest trend of birthday cake, cupcakes! i love it and i wish someone could give me something lk this on my bday. lol anyway its okay, i dun feel lk celebrating either. I dont know, myabe too many stuffs happened this year. I've got the feeling, It is the worst year for me. Turning 17 might be fun as i get to take my license and drive, finishing high skul and etc. But im nt feeling any of it. =/ Btw i dont think anyone will remember too as they will be busy with college, exams, work or even dancing? haha aniway its ok, we get to celebrate every year,eventually it would be the same after all. ;D

Blessing .

Im learning to go church recently. Still rmb those days which i totally oppose the idea of going church, and yea im learning to make myself closer to god. Going church is a very new task for me,not to mention task but something very new as im nt a christian. Well, it started off with boredom and it was hard to bear, after some time i found out services gives me lessons , showing steps to work it out in life. Life is hard and it is harder b4, but im learning to accept the fact and sharing every problems. Everything changes, u won't knw so do i.

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emo day. Cause im not happy,seeing my dad overwhelmed by problems tht couldn't solve. He is having a hard time recently, hard time in dealing with people around him. He was upset with the attitudes, characters of people he used to treat them good. He was asking me, san did i do anything wrong in my life tht i hv to deal with these ppl? They are driving me nuts. Im so overwhelmed, nt knowing wht to do. I left no one tht is truly sincere to me and life would be nothing without 3 of u. My tears welled up in my eyes, but im trying to be strong in front of him cz i knw breaking down will only make things worst.

Papa, looking at ur face i hv to pretend and im sorry. Looking at ur face, i can do nothing cz to u im jz a 17 year old gal who is 24/7 happy living in a stress less life. U always say i got no stress even in my studies, the truth of my never ending smile isn't the way u thought it is.

I am sad, i can do nothing for u papa. The only thing i am capable to help u is, to pray hard for u every night. Hoping u to get the peace and deter urself from the problems u are facing. We will always be by ur side, no matter wht happen in our life, u are still the great successful papa in our eyes which will not change. That will be the blessing i'll always give to u.

P.S. I LOVE U TO THE END OF MY LIFE, PAPA.YOU ARE THE MAN.

Stress invaders.

School has started. And results of trials were out. Partly, not all of it.
I'm feeling stressful recently. Like shyt. Looking at those papers, i kept asking,how could i be that stupid? how could i be that careless? how could i act so foolish?
I was kinda taken aback when i get my results. Cause i rmb i knew those questions, i knew every single answers, and how on earth i can get such terrible, ugly-looking results? I DID STUDY, I DID CONCENTRATE, I DID EVERYTHING . I WAS BEING A GOOD STUDENT IN SCHOOL. i have no disciplinary problems, but why am i so dumb? Way soo dumb. Looking at my friends who get good marks in their test, I cant stop myself from hiding away from them, cause i feel like i doesn't belong to them. They have the brain and i have got nothing. No matter how hard i study, i still get such results, so what's the point ?


Can't stand or bear anymore. I wanted to give up. Stress invaders are coming towards my side. I'm helpless. How could i outwit them? I left not much time. 6 weeks more to go. Is tht possible i don't knw, all i can clarify is, I'm tired overwhelmed by all those things spinning in my mind-spm,results,courses,schools to enter, field to take,heartbreaking issues. I'm beyond outta control, cz numbness has made me stun, glaring and doing nothing upon my conditions. Sinned.

Wht's the point of dropping tears? There won't be any solutions, stop being such a kid. U won't get yourself a lollipop. How i wish i could talk to the one i wanna spill,share everything with.
No hopes, no signs girl. Bboy swagger got married to dancing...Cut the part , fool . ok ?

I'm outta my way. What should i do.

B.E.P concert

BEP concert was damn awesome, awesome and awesome. First time to concert,and bep's was fun!

camwhoring :)

in the car. Pity for the sohais fighting over bread.lol


Even though we got some problems before concert like transportation problem and dav was having heavy headache, we still manage to have fun in the concert cause its BEP !

THANKS TO BEP :)

Kenneth short form as Gai was fetching us around. Being a driver isn't easy and i understand. Thank you so much! =) Our poser mum, ANGELYNE was posing for the whole night. Spotlight and cameras love her right, so she was posing from the start till the end. Keep it up mum!

look at the crowd.

poser !

While waiting for BEP.




The concert was super super cool. I think we lost weight like mum said cause we were sweating like mad cow. It was packed and full with people but still, looking at the screen is much more better than squeezing in the crowd. :)end of it.


Concert ended at 12 something so we walked to station 1 cafe which is not too far from sunway. Didn't take much for my camera. Others are in Dav's.





i like this. look hot.

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The next morning we nearly miss our train back to ipoh. We were supposedly to be at KL central before 1 and guess what. We left subang area to kl central at 1235 by cab. Once got down from the car, we never stop running, searching for the 1 o clock train. It was sooo sooo exhausted chasing after train. Luckily, we managed to catch up even though i don't feel like catching up cause i wanna stay longer in kl. -.-

Here are some pics. We look like shyt.

Even though the trip was short , we still had fun. XD