Blessing .

Im learning to go church recently. Still rmb those days which i totally oppose the idea of going church, and yea im learning to make myself closer to god. Going church is a very new task for me,not to mention task but something very new as im nt a christian. Well, it started off with boredom and it was hard to bear, after some time i found out services gives me lessons , showing steps to work it out in life. Life is hard and it is harder b4, but im learning to accept the fact and sharing every problems. Everything changes, u won't knw so do i.

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emo day. Cause im not happy,seeing my dad overwhelmed by problems tht couldn't solve. He is having a hard time recently, hard time in dealing with people around him. He was upset with the attitudes, characters of people he used to treat them good. He was asking me, san did i do anything wrong in my life tht i hv to deal with these ppl? They are driving me nuts. Im so overwhelmed, nt knowing wht to do. I left no one tht is truly sincere to me and life would be nothing without 3 of u. My tears welled up in my eyes, but im trying to be strong in front of him cz i knw breaking down will only make things worst.

Papa, looking at ur face i hv to pretend and im sorry. Looking at ur face, i can do nothing cz to u im jz a 17 year old gal who is 24/7 happy living in a stress less life. U always say i got no stress even in my studies, the truth of my never ending smile isn't the way u thought it is.

I am sad, i can do nothing for u papa. The only thing i am capable to help u is, to pray hard for u every night. Hoping u to get the peace and deter urself from the problems u are facing. We will always be by ur side, no matter wht happen in our life, u are still the great successful papa in our eyes which will not change. That will be the blessing i'll always give to u.

P.S. I LOVE U TO THE END OF MY LIFE, PAPA.YOU ARE THE MAN.