BOM BOM BOM !

HEY ITS MAY !

time flies, and it passes extremely fast especially when u are busy with piles of works and stuffs.

5th week of being away from home, and I'm starting to get used to it, despite homesickness that sometimes arise during class.

Days have been busy, tons of assignments, tons of work that makes u feel like suffocating.

Dont worry, i still survive no matter what, lol.

Missing friends, missing home, missing food in ipoh is killing. I've not been back to ipoh for 2 weeks, so i'll definitely heading back this week, and try fohsan, cuz u can't find such tasty 'charsiewpau' in kl, and trust me, I MISS IT. Speaking of which, my classmates love char siew pau, i have no idea why.

urghh, essay outline tmr, guess i better start working on it now. Ill update my blog soon, i know, its so outdated. lol

A better family in my heart .

Hello, I'm back.

Its been a while since i updated my blog. I've been busy with college stuff and enjoying as much as i can. Yeap, even though there are hectic schedules but still, I am enjoying myself with bunch of new friends and new environment.

Its Saturday, and again, family issues back in ipoh. I've been receiving calls from dad these few days, probably i am the only listener to him and being away from home, he has no choice but to call me several times a day? How i wish i could be back to comfort him. Love u always daddy.

Make it clear, my parents fought again, FOR A REASON WHICH I THINK IT IS NOT EVEN AN ISSUE.

People do have feelings don't they. When i saw my sister posted status saying she hates mum,dad and all, i was hurt, no doubt, i was sad.

Hating one another in a family, how pathetic it is.

2nd issue, do not accuse me when i did nothing. Stop accusing me brother. I know u love your gf like there is no tomorrow, but still, do not accuse me. Despite everything, i am still your sister, a biological one. You hurt me with ur words, ever since u had a gf. Do u still remember your sisters?

Sometimes i wish i could have a better family, a better, peaceful family.

I've tried my best to pace back everything, that's all i can do.

Orientation day .

First day of college , it was fun and i get to know some friends.
CPU is fun i can tell, u will never regret choosing it cuz it is so so much fun. Challenging it is!
Met some friends on the orientation day, plenty for us to gawk at.

It stated that my class will be starting at 9.15 and ending at 5.45 everyday. Cool ! :P
What else. Hmm.

ANYWAY, class is starting tmr, can't wait !

woots woots, here i am .

Here i am , back again. I was busy with packing & unpacking recently, ups and downs from kl to ipoh and from ipoh to genting, genting to ipoh & finally ipoh to the place which i am enjoying myself now- kl. :D

Okay, here are some updates for the past few days.

Went for a movie with gest on Thursday, watched daybreakers and it sent shivers down my nerves, it scared the crap out of me. Anyway thanks gest for the card u made and stuff u bought. *winks

thanks alot for the thought , friend. :p

Days passed quickly, and here comes Sunday. Met up with my girls at mern's stall, just for a brief gathering, guess i just missed them. Received a chocolate cake from my dear ning, guess what she baked it herself. Well u do know that i don't indulge in chocolate right? In fact, i HATE chocolate. LOL. Anyway that's not the main point, the thing is, I actually finished up half of the cake. Call me weirdo ? lol nahh it wasn't the taste of the cake, i was touched by her, my 11years bestie.

Guess i didn't drop my tears onto it ? :P

On my way to kl , here i am !!

mood.

I MISS OUR GENTING TRIP ! ='(

http://www.facebook.com/home.php?#!/album.php?aid=4658&id=100000778222251

pictures tell. Always the best memory in my heart.

I miss u, really do.

Py, if u're reading this , i wanted to tell u that i really miss u.


It's 1.46a.m. and i suddenly thought bout u. I know that u've been busy with ur studies and life over melb, but i miss talking with u.

Viewed ur blog few minutes ago, realised that u are having a hard time. I kinda figured out what is going on deep inside ur heart, and i totally understand ur feelings right now. It is hard.However it is, i want u to be strong. I know that they lied to u, but keep this in mind that they are also the duo that love u the most in this world. Please be strong, that's all i want u to do right now. Bear in mind that despite the distance tween u &I , i still care much bout u.


How i wish u can call and spill everything out, cuz i really do, miss ur voice. Miss the weirdest laughter of urs, the crazy, pretty-looking that i wouldn't wana miss. I know that i might not be the closest one for u now cuz u are so far away from me, i want u to know that the bond tween us will always be there and shall never change even tho we talk much lesser nowadays.

I LOVE U, ALWAYS & ALWAYS .

Laugh like we never laugh before.

Went education fair which held in syuen hotel this morning. Speaking of which, it took me by surprise that i met a bunch of friends there. It was so crowded. After being in there for about half an hour i guess, i couldn't bear the hotness and i sneaked out while my friends were trying hard to squeeze in. Thank god that i've done everything much more earlier than the others.

Had lunch in parade's kopitiam with my girls, sort of made it as a small farewell cuz yeexin is leaving for college this sunday,wouldn't get the chance to meet her after this. Well actually i do get a chance to, cuz she will be in INTI which is few blocks away from my school, no to be exact, it is RIGHT beside my school isn't it ?

After biding goodbye, the four of us ( Carmen , YinMei , Zning ) went to do some crazy shopping in Giant, yes we are not shopping for clothes, food it is. Guess what we did, we were trying on panties sold, laughing at the patterns we chose and the funniest thing was, carmen insisted to buy a seductive sleeping attire with bear on it, and it is red in colour ! Someone came out with this crazy idea that we are going to put on singlet and shorts in genting. The worst part is, we will have to have ice cream outside the hotel ! So we bought ourselves a singlet and a short, prepare to be freezed up the hill. Its a dare though, who wouldn't want a better dare ? LOL.

Just couldn't stop laughing for the whole day .

One thing that i found out bout my friends today. They are actually pretty adorable, adorable in the sense of humorous in a way. I enjoyed laughing at their stupidity and funny looks , guess I'll miss their dumb-looking faces soon. sobs. Also, i'll always miss our extraordinary shopping moments peeps.


FOOD, OH FOOD. We bought loads of loads of junk foods, drinks and cup noodles. yummy.
Couldn't wait till it is Sunday, and here we come, 5 maniacs are going to rock Genting and turn it upside down !

Such a long day !

Woke up in the morning and made breakfast which i promised the night before. Made western-style breakfast for my family, whee.

Menu of the day :

*scrambled eggs ( used 8 eggs ! )

*ham

*bread with cheese on top

*tomato & apple

*dutchlady fresh milk

*cereal

LOL !

i know it sound so 'rojak' , healthy it is ! Let's see if they enjoy the meal.

Guess pictures tell us all , THEY LOVE IT !

Nothing else to do, so i bathed my dog and tied him outside.

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Asked yinmei for a date, she was free & available to be mine today, luckily. Picked her up from oldtown area and went to jj. Bought TSHIRTS again. lol.

Had a great time with her, talked bout everything and discussed bout what should we do and bring for Genting Trip. Here comes our 1st successful trip, the one that we've been talking bout it since F4. FINALLY , its happening ! :)

Anyway, Camwhore sessions !

I have no idea why i do that, I just did. Eww its horrible to look at, but I love to do so.She was on the phone all the time ! hmmph.

Geston came. Poor thing he had no accompany for lunch, so i asked him to tag along in order to keep his loneliness away. See, i treat u well so u should be grateful ! lol I was just being kind. Well, he didn't talk much today, shy perhaps ? Don't be don't be . :)

Back to what we had discussed. I suggested to wear skirt for the first day of our trip, and yinmei suggested to put on our shades. Wait, i need shades then !

And i bought another water tumbler for college in parade, its pink and with ' HAPPINESS, the way is not in the SKY, the way is in the HEART' on it. Its pink with simple patterns on it so i bought without doubts. :)

Edu fair in syuen hotel tmr, my friends asked if i am going. Well no harm attending, since I've got nothing to do tomorrow. Right after the fair, we are going to do some shopping for the trip.

Hope it will be a blast !

Anyway i just wana post this, mood for the day - HAPPY. level - 10 ! lol.

Preparation .

Woke up late again, it was already 11 when i was finally up from my bed. I got so wobbled this morning, due to the itchiness brought by my skin the night before, i barely sleep. For god's sake, i wasn't in a proper slumber, waking up every single hour - 2a.m. , 3a.m. , 4 a.m. , 5 a.m. ,6a.m, 7a.m. was killing. However, i sounded asleep after that, thank god.

Hmm, waking up late is actually a waste of time. U can actually do a plenty of stuff in the morning. PLENTY.

Went for some shopping with mum yest, some new tshirts and shorts for college, that's a must cause i'm sort of run out of proper attire, mum declared that i have to wear proper clothes during school days so she bought me only tshirts. sobs. Here. :(

Did some banking too, withdrew 1k and transferred into another account which i'll be using as living expenses in kl for the first month. Mum added 1k in it as she said its for my 7As that i got. Hmm, 7As is nothing to me mum..
Bought a pair of shoe with my own $ . =)

LOL.

Bought a tshirt with the phrase, 'KNOWLEDGE IS POWER.'

i like it, it meant so much for students like us.

just a random shot. grandma ! she is 92, believe me .

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Was talking to weichien through msn a while ago. Telling her bout the changing of courses, talking bout CPU. She was right, isn't it true that we should have faith in the courses u chose instead of having doubts in mind ? Once u decided , u should try to love it, in the matter of fact, u choose the courses u like , love instead of some courses that u are doubting, wondering that it might be ur wrong choice since not much people is taking it ? hmm. We choose and decide our own pathway aren't we ?

Anyway CPU can be described by one word - Hectic. its time to face the music !

Promised to sleep early every night, and i break the promise almost everyday. -.-

LOLLI 2. screaaamm !!

BIG BANG 2010. FINALLY, their brand new lollipop 2, song for their CF of cyon.

I just can't stop replaying , my mouth will go, ''GIRL,U'RE MY LOLLIPOP OH GIRL ! '' everytime it got tuned. It goes woah !

THEY ARE SIZZLING HOT !

TOP

YB,THE HOTTEST FOR ME.

GD.

DS.

SR.

That would be so great if Malaysia is selling cyon. GREAT .

way to go BB you guys are the best among all !

But Cinderella you're a Lollidella whos put on L.E.D slippers.

Girl u're my lollipop oh girl u're my lolli lolli.

just love the way they vow it :)

Its been a while.

I guess i have not been blogging for the past 2 months right ? So here i am.
Just got my spm results 2days ago. Disappointment is all i can describe bout it, not to mention much, i am just disappointed with my results. 7As is not enough for me.

So what's next ? College. The next walk of your life is beginning. That is what really matters to me right now, after putting spm results off my mind. I've enrolled Taylor's and starting my courses on the 29th. SOON- that's all i wanted to say, way too fast. 2 weeks after I'll be a big girl entering college, picking up the responsibility in taking care of myself . hmph.

Recalling the days after spm, i wished to enter college as soon as i can, can't wait for the new environment, new school, new place out from home, new people, new friends. Everything is just about NEW , NEW & NEW. I was yelling, : ''A NEW FRESH LIFE AWAITING ! HOOORAAY !''.
But right now, i have this 2nd thought of mind and feeling that I don't wanna go.
I'll be missing everything , everything in IPOH. Now that i realised how wonderful, great , memorable this smalltown that i'm living is , how much i want to stay .

I'll definitely miss you, IPOH .

Worst night .

It was the last night for me to spend my time with py as she is leaving soon . I was so effin tired , thanks to paranormal activity i couldn't sleep well for the previous night , yet i had to get up early for my driving lessons . I got a call from py of meeting her up , at least it cheered me up alil . We went for movie and straight to mamak for dinner .
Right after dinner , someone suggested to go Infi for games , actually it was py's idea for meeting J , the bf ? It was her last night , and i was thinking to help her by telling it was my idea . I know i've been going out lately especially at night so i promised mum to be back by 12 to keep her from getting worry , so i didn't mention bout the infi plan .
Auntie Annie accidentally told my mum , and she called , screaming at the other side what is wrong with me that i've been acting rebellious lately , so does dad . Its not something that will come out from his mouth , and for the first time of my life , i lost my dad's trust .

I'm effin moody when i got home , i might be a lil too over and , rude to my parents lately ..
Maybe that is the reason of them unwilling to send me to aus . Its all my fault after all .
My plan of convincing them went down to earth , and idk if i should try it again . I lost my confidence of able to convince my parents . When is the next time which im ready and confident enough to convince them ?
Mum , dad, millions, billions of words underneath my heart that i wish to spill them out , will both of u listen to me ?

and , i feel so sorry for ruining py's night . Sorry .

Confusion

Confusion got into me recently . It is the end of January , ly is leaving in few hours time , so does py on wednesday . i'm all alone by now . i'm confused , about colleges and everything that get into my mind . February is coming with a snap of fingers, and i'm still hanging , have not decided which school to enter . When everyone ask about college , i feel like avoiding with some reasons .
The reasons are financial and homesickness that i would be facing . Oh yeah i would really wana get into Trinity , after considering and much of thinking , i realised i can't be selfish right . Having a bro who is entering uni , i should really consider of going to australia for studies . Its not like my parents don't have the amount of money , it is just that i don't feel like seeing my dad working 24/7 non stop just to pay for our fees . He is getting weak day by day , i shouldn't be selfish just because of I wana get in Melbourne U . I know that they wouldn't mind paying , cuz they love me and they always do .

I'm really confused , should i be selfish and think about my future for once ?

no place to go .

Back to normal life.

those jungle lovers went hunting for their trees,
those so called 'students' were back to their school lifes,
those who were about to say 'ciaoz' are on their separate ways.
and those who are welcoming their entirely new lifes are preparing with bright smiles or perhaps sadness? on their faces .

and I have got nothing to do, literally nothing. SCREW MYSELF.
i should be applying for foundation, in fact i have not been doing it after my goddamn spm.
i should start to decide what am i planning to do or further in, in fact i still couldn't make up my mind . SCREW MYSELF AGAIN.

whattodo.whattodo.whattodo.whattodo.whattodo.

whichschool.whichschool.whichschool.whichschool.

whattostudy.whattostudy.whattostudy.whattostudy.whattostudy.

wheretogo.wheretogo.wheretogo.wheretogo.wheretogo.wheretogo.

screwyou.screwyou.screwyou.screwyou.screwyou.screwyou.screwyou.

DAMN !!

i'm like, no place to go . sobs .