Stress invaders.

School has started. And results of trials were out. Partly, not all of it.
I'm feeling stressful recently. Like shyt. Looking at those papers, i kept asking,how could i be that stupid? how could i be that careless? how could i act so foolish?
I was kinda taken aback when i get my results. Cause i rmb i knew those questions, i knew every single answers, and how on earth i can get such terrible, ugly-looking results? I DID STUDY, I DID CONCENTRATE, I DID EVERYTHING . I WAS BEING A GOOD STUDENT IN SCHOOL. i have no disciplinary problems, but why am i so dumb? Way soo dumb. Looking at my friends who get good marks in their test, I cant stop myself from hiding away from them, cause i feel like i doesn't belong to them. They have the brain and i have got nothing. No matter how hard i study, i still get such results, so what's the point ?


Can't stand or bear anymore. I wanted to give up. Stress invaders are coming towards my side. I'm helpless. How could i outwit them? I left not much time. 6 weeks more to go. Is tht possible i don't knw, all i can clarify is, I'm tired overwhelmed by all those things spinning in my mind-spm,results,courses,schools to enter, field to take,heartbreaking issues. I'm beyond outta control, cz numbness has made me stun, glaring and doing nothing upon my conditions. Sinned.

Wht's the point of dropping tears? There won't be any solutions, stop being such a kid. U won't get yourself a lollipop. How i wish i could talk to the one i wanna spill,share everything with.
No hopes, no signs girl. Bboy swagger got married to dancing...Cut the part , fool . ok ?

I'm outta my way. What should i do.

B.E.P concert

BEP concert was damn awesome, awesome and awesome. First time to concert,and bep's was fun!

camwhoring :)

in the car. Pity for the sohais fighting over bread.lol


Even though we got some problems before concert like transportation problem and dav was having heavy headache, we still manage to have fun in the concert cause its BEP !

THANKS TO BEP :)

Kenneth short form as Gai was fetching us around. Being a driver isn't easy and i understand. Thank you so much! =) Our poser mum, ANGELYNE was posing for the whole night. Spotlight and cameras love her right, so she was posing from the start till the end. Keep it up mum!

look at the crowd.

poser !

While waiting for BEP.




The concert was super super cool. I think we lost weight like mum said cause we were sweating like mad cow. It was packed and full with people but still, looking at the screen is much more better than squeezing in the crowd. :)end of it.


Concert ended at 12 something so we walked to station 1 cafe which is not too far from sunway. Didn't take much for my camera. Others are in Dav's.





i like this. look hot.

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The next morning we nearly miss our train back to ipoh. We were supposedly to be at KL central before 1 and guess what. We left subang area to kl central at 1235 by cab. Once got down from the car, we never stop running, searching for the 1 o clock train. It was sooo sooo exhausted chasing after train. Luckily, we managed to catch up even though i don't feel like catching up cause i wanna stay longer in kl. -.-

Here are some pics. We look like shyt.

Even though the trip was short , we still had fun. XD

Growing up .

After every matter that i faced, encountered, finally i realised Im growing up.
Someone is right that i actually get benefits during this period of time and now i understand what does that mean. Looking back at the days, can't believe im actually standing straight right now,erm slightly slanting too.

I was helping mum with house chores today. I did not realised and found out that mum actually look older and older. Her face reflects how big am I, how hard she had raised me for 16+ years. Her daughter is 16 years old plus and turning 17 in few weeks time. Yet she has to worry and make sure im getting along and doing fine in studies, friendship or relationship. LOL mum not to worry, i'm learning to handle myself right now.
I love u mum.

Yes there are so many things overwhelming me and sometimes i feel like crying. I had done so many stupid things that i could not imagine in my entire life. I was once failed in relationship. And tht is the biggest obstacle in my path of moving on to a better life. Give me a F like others do. I deserve so serve me right. Admitting that I used to deny every mistakes, I've actually hurt others feelings. I'm so so so poor in handling these stuff. haha yea thats me. I have no idea.=/
I am trying my best to change. Give me time babe. Maybe i should change my title to changesan instead of changeline. lol dumbness.
Undergo growing process or puberty? HAHA whatever.

so ending is about how the way u change it and everything will be under control. =)

Rehab centre.

Rehab rehab rehab.

Addicted to drugs, there is always rehab centre. They cure and change u in it, making u a better life and live a better way. What about love addictive? Is there any rehab centre for such stupid thing? Well, finally there is! CCBs are the centre.

Recently i realised that every single person in ccbs has got problems in their own ways. We came from different predicaments and circumstances. We are so different in every ways. Cause we have different feelings, different way of thinking and different way of speaking. BUT, there is something which i found out that can stick us together. Its the way we comfort another. No matter how big is the circle, we still stick to each other cause ccbs always there for one another.

Every single members do look like pain killers and they are the strongest to kill the pain underneath.

So bitches and bastard, remember and get ur pain killers from ccbs rehab centre. =)

p/s. ILY GUYS FOREVER. <3

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DAV and aaron are leaving to kl in few more hours. Take care and ill meet u guys right away. :)

Stupidity.

Stuck staying at home, i get to see cpy today. Main thing is to burn fats as both us knew that something isn't right. We are gaining weight! Ur right holidays but still, FIGURE is way more important than anything in this world, so we decided to do some jogging and basketball games in order to burn fats.
Basketball isn't that easy as we thought it is. The most irony part is, there are two gals in the basketball court, no i mean two football players to be exact. Hey it took us half an hour just to figure out such cute outfits! Basketball is hard, at least we won for great outfits don't we?

p/s. someone is being a barney

it is always good for us to act like fools, cause foolish is always better than pretending.

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Another day. holidays yet nothing much i can do.
IPOH is always a small town which famous for 2 spots, JJ or parade. Home is always a better choice afterall.

-go online
-sleep as much as i can before school reopen
-oh and! BEP tickets! where the hell is aaron!

Here is the thing, ccbs wanted to go down for BEP concert. wait is there any available tickets? aaron where the hell is the tickets? lol.

angel jx and kc might be joining us. well it might be another fun night. first of all, aaron please get us the tickets. AARON!! =)

Dav and aaron are going down this thurs. too bad that i have something else to do and can only go down for BEP concert on friday. =/ Ill get my ass to kl right after friday's exam guys!

In the midst of anxiety man !

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Its kbox night by khailai.

Being a listener, i actually enjoy listening to dav's vocal, she is great and i love her voice.

Dav, when is ur next competition ? LOL sorry .

ROOM32 and finally im there. well i was late as i had to join dinner with family.

oh my i love these!

there is always a comfort in my heart when i see them. :)

ILY GUYS! <3

khailai sent me home as i got no transport. we had a lil talk. btw,thanks for the hangover kl. ill remember what u told me whenever. :)

the hangover.

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Its friday. Meanwhile, one day after 3 weeks trials.

FINALLY, IM BREATHING.

lol 3 weeks exam was too much so i decided to throw a 'happy holiday' bash? anything just anything. as long we get to gain enormous fun.

A mini bash. CCBs to be counted for sure!

Here we go.

ps. My bitch is back as in from somewhere far.cpy!

All i can recall is, they were super crazy that night.

missing in pics - stezon , khailai, bo , jx, ping

CCBs forever!

New post.

First post again?

Its been a while since i blog.

well, hey guys. once again.

the name as usual, voontsusan , 17 student.

live, grow and shyt in ipoh , small town of Perak which famous for something i guess? :)

stick to me.